“Make a stupid remark, kill yourself. Like the movie, you live.” All I’m missing from this morning is being late for the train… I hope that doesn’t mean I’ll be late for work. I’d rather not kill myself before my 19th birthday… Though, it’s likely.
I’ve been having a hard time finding motivation and reason for life… I need to be saved, I’m just not sure anybody could or would want to go through that. I’m actually kind of hoping nobody saves me and that I just hit rock bottom. I’m so fucking sick of being alive. I have a job now, so sitting around my room in a catatonic state is no longer an option.
@1 year ago#death #depression #catatonia #fuck me #i do not want to be here #oh my god #i'm gonna lose it.
